The Silence of a Weary Mind

Racking me with inability
What I think makes sense isn’t sensibility
My mind lies asleep.
I want to wake it to dream,
Of all the things in my life
The way they need to be
The way I would like it to turn out
My own stupidity spreads confusion
Awake o my mind
Feel the life
Let the longing of my soul be told

Watching empty days become life's summation,
Results of poor choices' storm.
My Lord makes clear to me my obligation,
Redeem the time thus change form.
Having nothing against this expectation,
My life I want to reform.
I set out to fulfill my new commission.
These actions I should preform,
But what distress is brought by comparison,
To what I try to conform,
Is far distant from my current condition.

Lonesome Association

The most popular girl in the school,
I walk through the hall surrounded,
By a large group of giggling girls.
My joyous laughter filling the hall.
Students and teachers greeting me by name.
This is my life, the world I live in.
Proving to be comfort for those who morn,
And eager to rejoice with those who celebrate.

The funny thing is what is inside.
Despite the smiles and the waves,
I really feel quiet alone.
Emotions defy reason.
Logic reigns not with my crazy soul.
While still wrapped with my own laughter,
I am looking towards the end of my day.
Just to walk alone with no people or laughter,
To find my God and enjoy His presence.
A simple time filled with love for Him